Sunday, April 09, 2006

The Second Wen Our Paths Crossed....Again...

Remember the saying, sumting abt letting go n if the person nvr come back, then he isnt urs in the first place, bt if he does, he's urs....

I remembered a story i heard abt dis couple who were together bt they broke up n they met each other again 5 yrs later n got hitched again n is now happily married wif kids.

With this two stories, i hung up to hope, i believed more in fate. i said to myself, mayb we were nvr meant to be.... if we did, we'll cross paths...sumday.... wen time passes by, all my hopes were thinning... the only thing i kept saying to myself is "let's wait for 5 yrs... maybe den our paths will cross again, juz like that story i heard"

wat i din realise is 5 yrs came....(time really flies dat fast huh?)
one moment i'm 18...n den suddenly, bam! i'm 23....

yest.... i went to haw par ctr.... (or rather the building beside it)
it's near park mall....n besides park mall there is dis fish n co, n in front of dis fish n co, was dis LOVE structure... n at that structure.... there was HIM...

at first i din realise it... (well duh! i m blind remember?) i was staring rite at the structure n remembered saying to along " eh kat sini benda love ni? baru aku tahu!" n along mumbled sumting abt me being stupid (althought according to shahreil n mum, along is bodoh!hahahah) n while crossing the road i said "manalah aku tau, aku kan non singaporean" n all this while looking at the bunch of budak2(so i tot..) who was lepaking there.

den i saw dis guy, in berms n red tees. n i saw him frm the back, n the first tot that came in my mind was "eh, he looks like isa" n i told dat to along. i told her, eh, dat guy look like isa frm the back... n along said...NO..... den i said yess.... den she said no.... i said yes.... n den he turn a bit...n i said there, he looked like isa! den she said no.... i said yes.... n obviously i noe better coz turn out it is ISA. i said "eh, mmg isalah!" den my sis said.. "tk!" n den she said " it is isa" coz apparently he turn to look at us (according to my sis, coz by this time i was already "hiding" so i cnt see anything)

I CANT BELIEVE IT! I SAW ISA! AFTER 5 YRS! n obviously i din expect it! i mean, like my previous entry i always dreamt of purposely kinda "accidental" kinda meetings, nt like dis accidental accidental kinda meetings, i mean i m nt prepared!!! how did i look? how was my hair? shit!

obviously i panicked n was xcited at the same time! i wanted so much to look at him, i wanted so much to jus pretend to be smooth n walk over n say hi! i wanted so much to juz at least smile at him or wave frm far. bt at that moment, i din do anything xcept turn away n wanted to rot in hell for i dunno y! i m such a mess!

i practically hate myself for nt being able to stay cool n look at him. juz look at him. i miss him soooooooooo much n yet wen i haf the opportunity to after YEARS, i did sumting so stuoid n lame! ARGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

EDITORIAL NOTE: PLS NOTE THAT THIS ENTRY IS INCOMPLETE AS BLOGSPOT KIP DC-ING ME. HOWEVER SINCE THIS INCIDENT HAPPENED ON 8TH APR 06, I HAF NO MORE INTENTION TO CONTINUE THE ENTRY. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS.

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 9:54 PM

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

I HATE BLOGGING!

Dun ask me the title, i just felt like writing it.
i dun really noe wat i wanna write today... i mean... i always haf lots to say n express... bt i ges i m nt gd wif words... so i ed up shutting up my mouth and turn on my other personality function so dat the whole world thinks i m leading a perfect life. make sense?

i ges i do hate blogging.

shit! i tink i m in a foul mood. y?

maybe for the umpteenth time i met dat bastard!
wic is sickening n contradicting coz i m nvr ever gonna get to see the man of my dreams again... n here i get to see the man of my nitemares over n over again!
ARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

another question.
m i really disappearing into thin air?
coz it seems like it.
i get questions like dat all the time.
is there sumting wron wif me?
m i ok?
do i haf problems?
wat is wrong??

a question for the question.
so.... basically... i must disappear for ppl to actually care???? n wonder how i m doing??? u mean, if i m rite in front of u laughing n smiling n cracking jokes n telling stories or gossips shows dat i m ok? IS DAT IT????!

cant i just simply haf my space, my time alone?
cant i just be too tired or sick to socialise?
cant i be disappointed wif life? n "frens"?

i dunno.
maybe i shld disappear more often.
or in this case, longer.
i hate blogging. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

bottom line: i dunno wats wrong so dun ask me wats wrong. dun pretend like you care, coz if u did, it wldnt haf taken dis long. argggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ok. i tink after sum time alone. i will be PERFECTLY all right. yup. i will be. i always have been. n i always should be. isnt dat rite?

i lead a perfect n happy life.
yes. a perfect n happy life.

smile!
i m on candid camera!

i hate blogging

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 7:34 PM